Tag Archives: stress

The rapidly approaching T-junction

There’s a lot going on in my head right now, and I’m not only struggling to make sense of it, but also to turn it into something that can be expressed in some way. I have no idea which way this post will turn. Lets find out. My background anxiety levels are through the roof, [...]

That explains nothing

Help. I’m sorry to start with such a stark word, but I truly feel like I need some help right now. Life with Asperger’s is at times full and happy, but I also find it to be filled with big periods of confusion, stress, anxiety, and unfortunately, hopelessness. These feelings have been so repetitive through my thirty-seven [...]

The season to be jolly

‘Tis the season to be jolly according to the words of the well known carol. The festive season has arrived and gone, and I have survived – but it has taken its toll. This year, our family festivities worked in a different way. Earlier in the year, my parents bought a second home in the [...]

Out of the blue

It came like a bolt from the blue. It always does. My wife wanted to talk. Not a friendly talk, but one of those talks where she wants to vent her huge frustration with me. She’s very good at this, and whether she realises it or not, has a canny knack of vicious character assassination, in [...]

Diagnosed: Part 2

Where do I start? Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome. That didn’t come as a surprise – I have after all been talking on this website for nearly eighteen months now in a matter-of-fact way as though it was already a done deal. The diagnosis left me feeling both shocked and relieved. [...]

Pay back time

On Monday I flew to Amsterdam on business, returning yesterday evening. I work in IT, and this trip was to visit the data centre we use to house our computer servers, with the main task being to fit out and commission a whole new cabinet with 20 servers and all the associated wiring and everything else that [...]

Subtlety

I have always been astonishingly good at faux pas. Since my self-realisation eighteen months or so ago that I have Asperger’s, there has of course been a reasonable explanation for this. Whilst I prefer to hide in the background, I do often say or do things are are simply not subtle. I say things that [...]

Fallout

I’m continuing to experience fallout from my stressful evening at the theatre last weekend. The flashbacks and replays of the events have stopped, thank goodness, but the evening has served to heighten my background levels of stress and anxiety considerably, and these have yet to abate. Whilst not causing a downward spiral by any means, [...]

The Timewarp

I’ve been left with a familiar feeling. So much so, that I nearly entitled this piece Groundhog Day. But to call it that that would just be showing another of my traits – the one where I present my own interpretation of things as fact, without having all the information needed. Passing off BS as [...]

Awareness

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? My new job is going well – very well. That is the biggest reason that I’ve not been writing here. It’s not that I couldn’t find the time to write, it’s a little more subtle than that. My new job has become my current special interest, and has taken [...]