Tag Archives: normalness

Saying one thing and doing another

“Hi James,” said a voice behind me in the baker’s shop this morning. I turned, and there was the new manager from work. She’s based at the other end of the country, and visits us for a couple of days every other week or so. “Oh, hi Lynne,” I said. As I paid for my [...]

Diagnosis

Books make a big thing about getting diagnosed. If you believe what you read, then getting a diagnosis for an Autism Spectrum Disorder is a very important and positive step. Is this true? The books are almost invariably written by people without autism, so why would they be such a great expert on this? I’m [...]

Sparking

I’m highly charged today. Perhaps literally. For the third day in a row I’m the only person in the office. There are usually three of us, with one of the other chaps spending almost his complete time ensuring that the system we run is performing properly. In his and my other colleague’s absence, it’s down [...]

Guilt

I like to think that in general my writing here is upbeat and positive. That isn’t always how I feel though, and this article reflects that. If that isn’t your thing, then maybe you’ll want to skip reading this time. This article also has some adult themes in places. You have been warned. – Guilt. [...]

Better to know?

If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you’ll know that I discovered my Asperger’s  in the autumn of 2008, when I was thirty five years old. Until that point in my life, I’d been plagued with feeling different from everyone else, getting into many scrapes of my own making that I didn’t see [...]

A bigger quotient

I received an email via the contact page of the website yesterday from Anna. I thought it might be of use to many of you, so here’s what she said: Hi James, I’m sure you must have done the AQ test, but I recently saw this PDF http://www.autismresearchcentre.com/docs/papers/2001_BCetal_AQ.pdf which shows on page 5 how the [...]

A holiday?

I’ve spent the last week listening. Listening to how my body reacts when pushed hard. I’ve been quite surprised at what I’ve heard. I shouldn’t be. My body reacted no differently than it ever has done. What was different this time was that I was seeing it through the eyes of Asperger’s. My old explanations [...]

Life derailed

I’ve written before about how my daily routine is on railway tracks, and that when something comes along that alters the course of my day, I’ll find that I want to continue down those tracks rather than modify my routine to the new schedule. Well, I’ve recently figured out that the whole bigger picture of [...]

Dysfunction

In the mid nineties, home computers were far less powerful and considerably more expensive than they are now. As a newly graduated Computer Sciences student, I wanted the best computer I could afford, and yet I had very little by way of disposable income to play with. To work around this problem, I decided to [...]

The quiet one

I wrote recently about dinner party that my wife and I hosted last month, and about how well it went. Well, last weekend the six of us present that night had dinner together again, with another of the couples acting as hosts. The evening didn’t go so well for me this time. It wasn’t that [...]