Tag Archives: fear

A new chapter

Yesterday morning, I emailed the information email address of a private counselling clinic in Sheffield, near to where I live. The clinic offer a Developmental Disorder Assessment for those who suspect they have an Autism Spectrum Disorder. The man behind both the clinic and  assessment is a very well respected psychotherapist and professor, which ultimately [...]

Diagnosis

Books make a big thing about getting diagnosed. If you believe what you read, then getting a diagnosis for an Autism Spectrum Disorder is a very important and positive step. Is this true? The books are almost invariably written by people without autism, so why would they be such a great expert on this? I’m [...]

Is this what we’re all living for today?

Just look at all those hungry mouths we have to feed Take a look at all the suffering we breed So many lonely faces scattered all around Searching for what they need Is this the world we created? what did we do it for? Is this the world we invaded? Against the law? So it [...]

Waiting for, well, something that never comes

The last few days have been somewhat plagued by this feeling. I’m anxiously waiting for something that never arrives. What is it that I’m waiting for? Well over the last few days, it’s been a number of things. Calls to third-parties at work result in “I’ll call you back”. I then sit there waiting for [...]

Not such a great social engagement

You might have spotted that I’ve not been too up-beat of late. In the middle of last week, right in the middle of feeling not-so-great, I had to attend a social function that I’d accepted before I started to feel that way. I nearly chickened out – a social engagement was the last thing I [...]

Better to know?

If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you’ll know that I discovered my Asperger’s  in the autumn of 2008, when I was thirty five years old. Until that point in my life, I’d been plagued with feeling different from everyone else, getting into many scrapes of my own making that I didn’t see [...]

What to do next

For as long as I have been in the IT profession, my best work has been produced from the ideas of other people. Tell me what needs doing, and I’ll do it. Typically I’ll do it well, and with a great attention to detail. Leave me to my own devices, and I’ll struggle to determine [...]

The work problem

I could have called this article Life derailed: part 2 or maybe even Derailed job. It’s really a continuation of my thoughts from the article I wrote yesterday, but applied to my work life. My work life hasn’t been derailed as yet, well not completely at any rate. In my article yesterday I talked about [...]

Feeling the fear

If you are on the spectrum, then you probably know this feeling. It’s the one where you look like a rabbit caught in car headlights just before it gets hit. Fear is never far away for me. I’m sure it is connected to my background stress and anxiety in some way, but frankly the feeling [...]