Archive for 'Experience'

Glass half full

I’m sure that everyone finds it difficult to be positive all of the time, no matter how high their self confidence is. My self confidence level moves around hugely, but on average has never been very high. Trying to keep my glass half full rather than half empty is a problem that I face frequently, and even after [...]

Subtlety

I have always been astonishingly good at faux pas. Since my self-realisation eighteen months or so ago that I have Asperger’s, there has of course been a reasonable explanation for this. Whilst I prefer to hide in the background, I do often say or do things are are simply not subtle. I say things that [...]

Unlimited

This post is a rant. Being a tech savvy geek with Asperger’s it’s no surprise that I’ve owned a smartphone for some time. Indeed, the first one I owned was a Sony P800, which was waaaay back in 2002. In those days you used a smartphone as an organiser, and not a great deal more, because this [...]

Fallout

I’m continuing to experience fallout from my stressful evening at the theatre last weekend. The flashbacks and replays of the events have stopped, thank goodness, but the evening has served to heighten my background levels of stress and anxiety considerably, and these have yet to abate. Whilst not causing a downward spiral by any means, [...]

The Timewarp

I’ve been left with a familiar feeling. So much so, that I nearly entitled this piece Groundhog Day. But to call it that that would just be showing another of my traits – the one where I present my own interpretation of things as fact, without having all the information needed. Passing off BS as [...]

Confirmation

Wow. Not only have I not written anything here for the last few months, I’ve not be reading any of your blogs either. For the first time in well over a year, AS has not been a conscious part of my daily routine for some time. Today I’ve not only written here for the first time since [...]

Awareness

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? My new job is going well – very well. That is the biggest reason that I’ve not been writing here. It’s not that I couldn’t find the time to write, it’s a little more subtle than that. My new job has become my current special interest, and has taken [...]

One, two, three, four…

You know how it goes: Ring-Ring. One… You don’t like calling people on the phone, and have just spent ages trying to pre-play the conversation in your head. Ring-Ring. Two… Anxiety is sloshing around. Ring-Ring. Three… It’s ok, people rarely pick up on three rings, unless they are sitting by the phone. Ring-Ring. Four… Ok, [...]

A different focus

I wasn’t intending to have a break in writing these last few weeks – it’s just the way that things have worked out. Interestingly, the reasons behind my lack of writing have ended up being very life-affirming for me. First, the good news: I was approached by someone I used to work with a couple [...]

Empathy from two perspectives

Last night, something dawned on both me and my wife. Whilst I can empathise with others, I can’t empathise in the same way that she can. It’s not that my ability to empathise is less strong than hers per se, more that I can’t use empathy in the same scenarios that she can. This all [...]